My Breastfeeding Journey is Almost Over

So, my breastfeeding journey is almost over. My son is almost one. I breastfed my daughter until she was 19 months old, and had major nursing aversion. My son is almost one and the amount of times he breastfeeds in a day is almost down to once. This is a bittersweet feeling. On the one hand, I will have my body back to myself! That in itself is just a happy dance for me. But then that also means, I’m not providing for my children anymore (in that sense anyway) and them not needing me that much anymore makes me so sad.

When I first started this journey on January 29, 2013, I was just planning on making it through the first three months. When I first started, no one told me about the insane amount of pain that it would cause. I always heard “if it hurts, they’re not latched correctly.” WRONG. It just hurts. I would cry while feeding my daughter and my husband would beg me to give her formula, but I always refused. After everything that had gone wrong in my pregnancy, this was one thing I had to do. It hurt the worst for the first three weeks, after those three weeks it started getting easier.

When she turned one, I decided I was ready to stop, so I started the weaning process. Which may have gone easier if maybe I wasn’t a stay at home. But, I am. So, for a week, my daughter screamed and screamed and screamed and I just gave in. I hated it, I didn’t enjoy it anymore, sure there were some times where it was enjoyable. But, until you’ve nursed a toddler it’s really hard to explain, but let me try. Imagine you’re trying to keep a cat in the bathtub, or water in general. You know how they go all crazy and all directions? That’s basically what breastfeeding a toddler is like. It’s not fun, but I did it. I nursed my daughter through my whole pregnancy. I was hoping it would help me dilate and efface during the end of my pregnancy. But, it didn’t.

I was terrified to tandem breastfeed. It looks cool when other moms do it on Facebook, they are true rock stars, those moms. But, I was terrified. I went in to have my son, and I fed her the morning before I went in, then when she came and saw her new brother and me, she didn’t nurse, she didn’t try. When I came home two days later, she didn’t nurse, she tried once and we told her it was “bubba milky” and she left them alone and has ever since.

I was kind of sad about how easy it was, but also extremely thankful. Now, it’s time to wean my son, and I’m hoping it goes smoothly and easily. I’m not sure how I’m going to do it yet. He has FINALLY started sleeping through the night this week though, which is a nice change, and maybe a sign he’s starting to be ready to wean.

Through this whole journey with my children,  I formed a passion for breastfeeding and helping other moms breastfeeding and trying to normalize it and make other moms know that it was okay to do, not just okay, but proud! That was my goal, it still is and it always will be. I have a lot of friends and family who don’t really understand it and still view it as a sexual thing, which is a whole other blog post in itself, but I’m hoping by sharing information, it’ll help to normalize it in my group of people, and go beyond.

Weekly Review Post #1- Sites I’m using!

Okay, so I have signed up with a few sites.

Here are the sites I have signed up with first, if you want to check them out and sign up yourself

DISCLAIMER- I have received free/reduced price products from these sites, but all opinions are my own! I would never recommend something I wouldn’t personally use. THANK YOU!

Smiley 360 use my widget

Pinchme sign up here

Influenster- use my widget 🙂

I am currently about to receive a box from both pinchme and smiley360. One of them is a teething box which I am SO excited for! One of them is a teething box, and I know for a fact that will come in handy! Baby G should be getting some more teeth soon! I can’t believe it!

The other box is going to have lotion, pantyliners, flossers, and some body wash. I’m pretty excited for that one too. I have a lotion obsession, so I’m hoping I’ll really like it. Those are going to be my next two review blogs. I hope you all like these. Also, I will be doing some videos too. If I start a YouTube channel, I’ll be sure and link it on here so you can follow my reviews as well.

Thank you for reading!


So, its been a couple weeks. A crazy couple weeks. I’m sorry, I have missed blogging so much. But, I am back! And, I have something to share with you all! I have recently started reviewing products. You can join me by using this link. About once a week I will post an HONEST review. Yes, these products will be free (or discounted) but, that does not affect my opinion AT ALL!

I have a lot of things planned to write up, but, my husband was in a wreck and we’ve been car shopping and car seat shopping and trying to get everything situated, so I’m hoping by the end of the week I will be back to blogging once a week.

Also, be on the lookout for adorable FIRST BIRTHDAY pictures! Have a wonderful Saturday!

I’ll be back soon!